tabestoon,,paieez,,zemestoon,,bahar,,tabestoon,,paieez,,zemestoon,,tekrar,,tekrar,,tekrar.....!
bazam hamoon bargaie narenji,,zard,,ghahveiee,,bazam hamoon shakhehaie khoshke siah,,bazam hamoon
javoonehaie maskhareie moZ'hek,bazam hamoon golhaiee ke bishtareshoon booie ta'afon midan,,,bazam ie
alame miveie rangi rangi ke az khordaneshoon lezzat mibaram,,az inke be kasiftarin model oonaro
bokhram lezzat mibaram....! va baz ham dobare paieez zemestoon bahar tabestoon....!va baz ham tekrar,,,doshmane saket o arume ma mojoodate joondar,,ke jooni baramoon namoonde ta
eteraf konim ke tekrar tamame selool haie badanemoono gerefte o por az doone doone zarrate tekrari
shodim,,,,messe ham,,,daghighan shekle ham.,,,,!!!hala az khodam miporsam khob chera gheire tekrar???chera tekrar na?...chon man tekrar o didam? chon az tekrar khaste shodam? chon tanavo' baraie
zendegi lazeme??mikham javabe soalamo tooie boghze khoon aloode in tekrare sarde khamoosh peida konam,,shaiad
bishtar az harchize digeiee ke fekresho bokoni doosesh dashte basham...!!mikham javabe soalamo tooie roshan tarin noghteie rooz tooie tarikie vojoodam peida konam,,va behesh
begam kheili pasti ke chenin mojoodate rizi ro vase bazi entekhab kardi.....!!!!are bazam avvale mehr shode o hameie bacheha raftan madrese,,,bazam ie alame mojoode bi masrafe dige
emsal rikhtan tooie madreseha o shodan kelas avvali,,,shodan messe khookhaie sooratie lajan khori ke
faghat baladan kesaft olajan ro noshkhar konan,,messe bache kelas avvaliaaa...!messe oona ke ba avvalin jamedadi,ba avvalin koole poshtie madrese,ba avvalin roopoosh ba vvalin
ghomghome,,kolli zogh kardano dige hichi nemifahman az inke pashoono koja gozashtan,,,nemifahman ke
pashoono gozashtan jaiee ke hezaran hezar sale ke khook haie digeiee messe man, messe TO,messe
hameie ma,,pashoono daighan hamoonja gozashtan va hessabi lajan mali kardan o raftan peie
kareshoon,,peie tannavoiee ke hichvaght behesh nemiresan..!ama man iadam nemiad ke rooze avvale kelass avvalam hamchin hessi dashete boode basham..raftam
madrese ama hich kasi nabood ke betoonam behesh begam DOOST!! kasi nabood ke behesh labkhand
bezanam,,,tanha shooroo kardam,,tanha edame dadam,,va hala ham tanha tamoomesh kardam...!12saal tamoom shod..12saal az bein raft,,12saal az man,az kargadan,az in noghteie
siah,gozasht,,12saal be ghole hameie mojoodate dorobaram,dars khoondam,,zendegi kardam,ba ketab o
daftar o medadrangio,tarash.12saal bedoone hich hadafi dars khondam,12saal bedoone hich fekri dars khoondam,,darsi ke hichvaght
nakhoondamesh..!12saal bedone inke beporsam chera dars mikhoonim? dars khoondam,,darsi ke hichvaght nakhoondamesh..!12saal bedoone inke be zehne tarikam ejaze bedam ke khodesho neshoon bede,az laie divaraie
khakestarie kelas,az beine negahe pajmorde o choorookideie oon moalleme khaste o pire dabestan,az
zire jomlehaie pooch o bi arzeshe moallemaie rahnamaiee,va az poshte zehne pooke dabirhaie
dabirestan ke zendegi ro bekhatere range eskenas sabz mididan o bekhatere in kolli khoshal boodan o
fakhr mifrookhtan,,biroon biad o bege manam hastam,,dars khoondam,,darsi ke hichvaght nakhoondam...!hala oon 12saal tamoom shode,man dars khoondam,,darsi ke hichvaght nakhoondam,,va hala poshte oon
hadafi ke entehaie 12 saal mishe hadafe ie alame az in khooka,moondam,,poshte chize mozakhrafi be
esme "konkoor"..shaiad chon aqslan behesh fekr nakardam,,shaiad ke na hatman,,chon aslan baram mohem naboode,,chon
baraie khodam chizi naboode,,ke zehnam behesh negah kone,,!hala bad az 12 saal inja neshastam.tooie tarikie khoshbooie khosh sedaie khodam,va az zendegim
lezzat mibaram,,lezzati ke hich kodoom az mojoodate rize dorobaram ta hala esmeham nashnidan....!
inke mehre,mehr tooie paieeze,poshte sare paieez, zemestoone o haminjoori takrar takrar o
takrar...aslan baram manie khassi nadare...!hamin baes mishe ta lahzehaie khoobe zendegie khodamo ba khodam tooie tariki beshmoram va az inke
shemordaneshono baladam khoshal basham.....! emsaal,ba hameie salhaaie pisham ie farghe gonde
dare,va oonam ineke lezzat mibaram az inke entekhab mikonam,,,,,,!!! az inke paieez baram hich
ahammiati nadare,messe baghieie faslaaa....! HAMIN .

tabestoon,,paieez,,zemestoon,,bahar,,paieez,,tabestoon,,zemestoon,,tekrar,tekrar,tekrar,,,,,,,,,,
hamechi mesle ham,,,,bazam avvale mehr shode o hameie bacheha zogh mikonan,,zoghe chi????,,,,ieki az doostam migoft: "age lavazem tahrire no nabood,,hichvaght vase madrese raftan zogh nemikardam".
ama nazaresh kamelan baraie bachehaiee ke har saal ba ie medade koochoolooie tarashide o ie daftare pare poore o .... shooroo mikonan kamelan motefavet bood,,ama behar haal,,doross migoft,,chon zoghi nabood ke bokone,,chon divaraie khakestarie madrese az avvale zendegimoon doremoono gereft o nazasht ke biroono negah konim,,roopooshaie soormeiee o meshki o khakestari,,,moallem haie pazhmorde o chorookideie dabestaan,,moallemaie maskhareie jelfe rahnamaiee,,va dabir haie alaki khoshe dabirestan ke dige cheshmeshoon chizi joz eskenas nemidid,,,,,ba in haal medad rangia o lavazeme jadid mohem naboodan o tamoom mishodan....!!! hadde aghal baraie MAN!!!
12 saal har avvale mehr ba larzeie dandoonaam,az sarmaie shabnam haiee ke rooie bargaie piaeezie avvale mehr neshaste boodan,,az khaab bidar shodam,,az khabi ke ta rooze ghablesh kamtar az 3 bad az zohr tool nemikeshid,,ropooshe no o maghna'eie no o kafshe no o kife no o,,,,,,chizaiee ke hich vaght nafahmidam chera baiad injoori bashan,,,mipooshidam o midavidam ta be service ee ke azash ja moonde boodam sare kooche beresam,,,,,sare koocheiee ke ta rooze ghablesh docharkhe bood o dad o fariiad o sheitanat....!!
miraftam madreseiee ke hichkodoom az bachehash hichvaght doost naboodan,,hichvaght ertebaati be onvane 2ta daste baaz bargharar nemikardan,,,va hichvaght nadidam ke kasi oonja behem labkhand bezane,,,,,az rooie doosti,,az rooie mohabbat,,az rooie mehr!!!!
khoshalam ke hamchin etefaghi naioftad,,,khoshalam ke hichkodoom az oona alan iadam nistan ke vaseie inke harfi zade basham begam delam barashoon tang shode,,,,,,,,,NA delam baraie hichkodoomeshoon tang nashode,,,,,delam baraie hichkasi tang nashode,,,!!!
12 saal haminjoori gozasht,,,,12 saal az man gozahst,,,12 saal az niousha,,az kargadan,,az noghte gozasht.....!!
12 saal,,,,raft o raft o raft,,,,,behesh ke nigga mikonam,,,chize mofidi nadaram ke behesh labkhand bezanam,,,ama hadde aghal midoonam ke chize na mofidi nadaram,,ke bekham be khateresh khodamo sarzanesh konam,,,,,,!!!!
emrooz sobh,,,,,avvale mehr e 1385,,,,dadashamo bidar kardam,,,bordimesh madrese,,,,ta 6omin saal az in 12 saale khakisho shooroo kone,,,ta 6 saal dige edaame bede,,,ke saale badesh,,,avvale mehr,,sob ke shod,,,hamin fekraiee ke alan man ,,,niousha,,,kargadan daram mikonam...oonam biad too kallash,,,Va bazam in tekrare maskhareie por darde moZ hek be karesh edame bede o roohe hamamoono birooh kone,,,,!!
dadasham raft madrese ,,,ama be in fek nemikard ke lavazem tahrire no dare o jamedadish por az medad o khodkaraie rangi rangie,,,dadasham ie gooshe istad o be hameie oon pesaraiee ke dashtan az gel e moohashoon moraghebat mikardan nega mikard.....!!! tanhaie tanha,,,messe khodam,,,va dobare bazam tekrar,,,bazam in tekrare sarde iakh zadeie khaste....!!
baraie dadashamam khoshalam,,,chon zendegish ghashang mishe,,,chon zendegish por az medad rangiaie khoorde o shekaste nemishe,,,,ie jabe medad rangi kafie.....!!!
HAMIN.....................!!!

avvale mehr shod o man dige madrese nemiram,,,dige danesh aamooz nistam,,,va in vasat baiad esmi baraie khodam peida konam,,,ie esm baraie 1 saal,,ie esm baraie ie poshte konkoori ....!!
ie esm baraie man,,,,
ie gije boht zadeie mashange aagaahhh..................!!!! ie ablah....are in khoobe,,,khodeshe~~>ABLAH .

And again the moon is on the wave, gliding gently into me,on silent wings the night comes from there,as my heart longs to thee...
...for in my hand I still hold the rose that froze long times ago,its leafs have withered, it ceased to grow - left in me is woe.
The wine of love, is o so sweet, but bitter is regret,I knew at sunset I would meet the ascending veils of dread.
Before my eyes nocturnal curtains fall,The dark and gentle haze of the night, greedily devours all.
The Night:"Woe to him whose heart is filled with bitter rue and who drowns in grief"
In the silence of the night I loose myself,it makes me drunken with its sweet blue sound.
In the drunk'ness of solitudeI fear no more the solemn realms of deathNo single sigh from my lips as I drink the wine of bitternessMy heart is aching nevermorefor I know that all may endJust I and the poetry of the nightNow forever one....
Just I and the poetry of the night, now forever one,The ensemble of silence plays so beautiful for me...

oOoOoOoOoOoFFF.......!!!!!!
donbale ie kalame....ie jomle.....ie neshoone.....ie BEEP.......vaseie inke befahmam chekar baiad bokonam.....!
donbale ie hadaf......az farte por hadafi.....donbale hamechi baraie HICHI,,va donbale HICHI baraie hamechi.........az hichkas komaki nemikham........chon ta vaghti ke sob beshe mifahmam ke chekar baiad bokonam...........!


hala sob shode o midoonam ke chikar baiad bokonam.......!

didi bazam man doross goftam???????

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HeH.......didi Goftam? didi Goftam?? didi Goftam ke man hichi nadaram ke be in jama'ate lashkhor bedam ke sir beshan??? didi Goftam man hichi nadaram ke neshooneshoon bedam ta dahaneshoon baste beshe o cheshmashoon baaaazzzz?? didi hagh ba man bood?????
khob dige hala khialam rahate ke be hame sabet shode ke man ie ahmaghe vagheiee hastam...ke har rooz daram zendegimo bishtar az dirooz be baad midam....ama kasi nemidoone ke man cheghad har rooz be chizi ke mikham nazdiktar misham....hichkas nemidoone ke dare tooie che hemaghati shelep shelep mikone o dast o pa mizane....!
hala dige khialam rahate ke kasi niss bege naaaaa.....niousha mitoone!!!!......(mitoone?)
heh!!!!!! in jomle akhariio hichvaght boland nemigan....
khodam shenidam,,,ke dare gooshe baghal dastish dasht migoft ,,, mitoone??
inke be to che rabti dare ke man mitoonam ia na,,,,aslan baram mohem niss,,,,
har ghalati delet mikhad bokon.....faghat dige lotfan dahaneto beband va az khodam chizi napors....chon motmaenam be to nemigam,,,,in TO momkene hameie atrafianam bashe.....atrafianam,nazdikanam,dooranam,,kheili dooranam,,,va kholase har ki ka HAST....!
kheili mamnoon misham age in lotfo dar haghe man bokonan....!!!!
fagaht jaleb injass ke hichkodoomeshoon inaro nemitoonan bebinan :))))) ke badesh be khodeshoon ia baghal dastishoon began....akhei az daste ki inghad delesh pore haaaN????

(marboote be 2 maahe pish....!!)
konkoor ke tamoom shod...natijasham oomad....gheire mojaz ham ke shodam...hich ajib ham nabood ke gheire mojaz misham !aslan koochiktarin axolamali nesbat behesh nadaram...kam kam vase khodamam iekam ajib mishe,ke vaghan chera inghad bi ahamiatam be in ghazie!!behar hal tamoom shod. messe baghieie etefaghaie tekrarie salhaie zendegie ma ensanha ke az tariki farar mikonim va be soorakhi tariktar panah mibarim,va hichvaght pei nemibarim ke in tariki hamoon zibaiee e negah kardan va ouje dide khales o pak nesbat be hamechize.ma ensanha hamechizo be hamechi rabt midim bedoone inke betoonim ertebate oonaro dark konim,in kare kheili bozorgie,hich mojoode zendeiee be in zerafat nemitoone in karo anjam bede,ama bazi vaghta karaiee anjam midim ke khali az hargoone rabt o ertebat o mani hastesh.in kararo anjam midim ama nemidoonim chera va baraie chi anjameshoon midim,doroste man ghabool daram ke chera va baraie chie hamechiz tooie khodeshoon nahoftast,va dalili nadare ke dahane goshademoono baz konim o bikhod o bi jahat arvarehaoono tekoon bedim va beporsim: "CHERA?". ama iechizi invasat hast ke fargh ro be vojood miare...kari ke man mikonam hich chera o baraie chi ee nadare.ama kari ke oona anjam midan agheshte ba hamin mozakhrafate,va "chera" jozve jodaiee napazire karashoone.mohem nist begzarim....!az in jomle motenaferam...in chand vaghte adamaiee didam ke dar moghabeleshoon faghat mitoonestam hamino begam,chon zarreiee dark nadashtan va khodeshoono ba edrak tarin mardom midoonestan!!!in moddat kheili chiza didam,dar aramesh beheshoon negah kardam,hazmeshoon kardam va ozvi az vojoodam kardameshoon,hala ehsas mikonamchizi bishitar az med o roode o kollie o rag o kise safra o khoon o ghalb o shosho....tooie badanam daram,iechizaiee poshte hameie ina,tooie saiashoon,tooie tarikie oonast ke in a'azaie jadide badanam dide mishan...kheili khoshalam ke inaro didam...!vaghan khoshalam ke didam va gozashtameshoon tooie boshghabamo khordameshoono hala vase hamishe darameshoon,va khaham dasht..shoma ham khoshal bashin,,,chon motmaen bashin az shoma ham ie ghaza vasam amade mishe,ke bokhoramesh,ie ghaza por az a'aza o javarehe jadide badanam....!

mano mibini? esmam ie ablahe...!mano mibini? vojoodamo belahat gerefte...mano mibini? hemaghat jozve ieki az karaie roozaname...mano mibini? chizi nadaram darbareie in ghesmate vojoodam begam....az in ghesmat badam miad....ta hala ham har balaiee saram oomade taghriban bekhatere hamin ghesmat boode.........midooni chekar kardam?? ie zangoole kharidam....harvaght ke khastam "ablaH" besham oono oonghad be seda dar miaram ta goosham befahme o bere be maghzam bege....!bege : divoooooooone....kare khodeto bokon....be baghie kari nadashte bash....ETEMAD NAKON!ie alame az adamaiee ke dorobaretan injoorian....(messe adam bozorga fek kardan!)har cheghad sa'i mikonam nemitoonam benevisam.....felan az oon ghesmate vojoodam motenaferam....! HAMIn

im walking now....on the nowhere street.... i like to touch the wind around maself....im gonna get everything clearly here. whithout any why,without any question.....! i dont have any wish to see u in here....so dont ask to ENTER.....!

im here,so near,without fear,drinking beer,understand everything so clear,........i want to be in my own way....i like to be maself. to be what i want from me.no one can disturb me...no way to run from maself. im so happy. im so sad. im so hot, im so cold,im so NUMB,im so feelfull,im not crying. i just see everywhere.......do know what?im alone....you can't ENTER me...so.....go in ur own way....and make me relax.....!

nemidoonam chand mah gozashte...nemidoonam chand rooz gozashte...nemidoonam,nemidoonam,nemidoonam....! harcheghad ke gozashte bashe,zaman nemitoone be man ejaze nade ke be chizi ke mikham ebresam,nemidoonam vaghean chi mikham,ama khoobish ineke midoonam chio nemikham....! hamin ie alame khoobe.i like to be in my own way,that no one can enter inside of it. i think its my solitude...its eternal...!hamechiz aroom,aroom,engar zaman ie halate ta'lighi be khodsh gerefte,hamechi shabihe saboone maie mimoone. harkate adama,harkate pahashoon sareshoon,dastashoon,mashina,bargaie derakhta,bal zadane parandeha,albate agar bali dashte bashan,agar bargi dashte bashan,agar dasti dashte bashan,agar sari dashte bashan,agar paiee dashte bashan....! in vasat faghat mashina hastan ke hichi darbarashoon nagoftam. dalil daram. mashina fargh mikonan. mashina kheili khooban.mashina charkh daran va harkat mikonan.inja ke man istadam,hamash por az khoone. hatta az khodamam ie alame khoon miad,az cheshmam,az dahanam, az binim, az goosham,az zire tak take nakhoonam khoon miad....!paham ta sare ghoozakesh tooie khoone,vaghti rah miram shelep shelep mikone. hesse kheili khoobie. kheili doosesh daram. ie alame pare kalagh rikhte tooie in khoonha. hamashoon khise khoonian. oonvartar kallashoon ham maloome. derakhtaie siah ke faghat shakhehaie nazoke bariki daran, hameja hastan.hamashoon full of power.full of pain. good pain.moohaie manam khise ama nemidoonam khoone ia aabe baroon. age baroon bood ke in khoonha hadar miraft,pas khoone. khorshid bazam dare ghoroob mikone. kam kam tarik mishe o hameie in ghermezia,siah mishan,cheghad ba shokooh,cheghad ziba...... .

gofte boodam ghablan ke az adamaiee ke sar be sare sadegio iekrangie man mizaran,halam beham mikhore,shaiad vase haminam hamash bala saram miad,vase hamin dige be hichkas hich hesse khassi nadaram,na dooseshoon daram va na azashoon motenaferam,faghat mikham dar kenare hamshoon tooie ie alame rang zendegi konam,basham,iek rang,agr nafahmidan ham hich mohem nist,aslane aslane aslan mohem nist,hamashoon dige faghat ie nafaran,ghiafe o zaher o har chize digeiee nemitoone beineshoon fargh ijad kone.............!
~~~~~>>salam be doniaie jadide rang o varang,behet tasliat migam chon man hich vaght rangi rangi nemisham....ba ehteram,zoghal<<~~~~~~